I woke up with all three littles in my bed this morning. Elbows were flying everywhere and when someone’s foot made contact with my head I admittedly lost it and kicked them all out. I immediately felt a huge wave of guilt and frustration with myself.
I took a minute during church to contemplate on that frustrating moment this morning and realized my mistake. I realized that I have been looking too inwardly lately. Too self centered and too self focused. Somewhere this week I lost my main focus and goal, which is to show love always. To love my children and my husband unconditionally and to put them first in all things, which sometimes oddly means putting myself first. It means taking a minute or 30 to physically and mentally prepare myself for the day and for my role in it.